Out of all the things in this world, the one thing I hate is a hypocrite and someone who continuously makes excuses. Just do everyone a favor, including yourself, and STFU.
If you say something, mean it. Grow a pair of balls and own up to your words. Man up.
Gahhhhhrrrrrr!! I just really hate it when people do that is all lol. Needed to get that off my chest.
On another note….
I have some friends who’ve been asking me to model for them. I took a pic of myself attempting to do some kind of “modelesque” pose and this is what I got:
Waddya think? Honestly, I feel like I’ve got some fat to burn off and muscle to build and tone before I can actually model for some of my friend’s portfolios (thank God they’re giving me time). I’m still not happy with my self image and I miss being under 100 lbs. I know I sound like a lunatic, but I felt awesome when I was lighter. I just need to change my mindset as well, because I refuse to let my self-esteem plummet. I am beautiful. Damnit. lol.
But freal, once spring break’s over that gym is going to be seeing a lot more of me. NO EXCUSES THIS TIME AROUND.
& one more thing…
I’m still miserable for some reason. I thought that getting everything off of my chest would do me justice once and for all, but I guess I thought wrong. Something still bugs me and sometimes I feel like I’m trapped inside my mind and that I’m being someone I wish I wasn’t. It’s not an internal conflict like what I’m making it appear to be. It’s my environment. Something has to change.
I’m just really tired of broken promises. And being disappointed all the time. It’s like no one has a sense of self control, responsibility, or humility. We’re all animals and I hate how using our brain to be considerate of others comes dead last. Chivalry is dead, and I feel like I’m losing a sense of hope. My patience is gone, and I don’t know what I can do anymore to make things better.
Such tired, let down eyes.
Thursday Mar 3 @ 12:51am